On the eve of yet another one of John Green’s books being turned into a movie, I remembered one of my favorite all time movies, also based on one of his books. “The Fault In Our Stars” quietly and gently broke my heart when it came out. I laughed, I cried and I loved everything about that movie. To this day I remember when I picked up the passes for the screening and the person handing them to me said: “I hope you brought enough tissues.” It was one of those movies during which everyone shed a tear here and there or quietly cried entrapped in the story, but no one felt the slightest embarrassment about crying in a room full or complete strangers. It was peaceful, compassionate, and lovely.
Now that I’m getting ready to see “Paper Towns”, I stopped for a second and looked back on some of the quotes I had gathered from “The Fault In Our Stars.” My heart stopped on the following one:
“I’m in love with you,” he said quietly.
“Augustus,” I said.
“I am,” he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. “I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.”
It got me thinking about the countless times we deny ourselves the love we feel just because we are afraid. We deny the simple pleasure of telling someone we love them or that we miss them, that we’ve been thinking about them, we deny ourselves the “shout out” of our feelings because we keep believing that everything is a shout in the void, that we will be forgotten or rejected.
The truth is every kind thing we say or do is never wasted, even if the other person doesn’t receive it. So keep saying them, keep speaking your truth and putting your love out in the universe.